Finding Something That Works

I haven’t been able to sit down and blog in a few weeks — been so busy with bridal shows and going to Colorado! The scale showed a small drop this week, but I wasn’t expecting much as I always fluctuate when I fly and feel puffy.

Last week, hubby and I went to Colorado to spend some time away. Usually, at least for the past two years, we have gone to New York City to be there on 9/11, but this year the money was just not where I wanted it to be and did not feel comfortable using money out of savings to fund the expensive, three day trip. Instead, we went to visit family in Colorado and go up to the Stanley Hotel in Estes Park and then hang out in Colorado Springs.

First off, to say we dodged a bullet is an understatement. When we arrived in Colorado on Tuesday it was raining and continued to do so the entire time we were in Estes Park. The next day, we drove all the way to Colorado Springs in the rain. When we turned on the news Thursday, we could not believe what was happening in the city we had just left 24 hours before. Massive flooding, road and bridge collapses, death and rock slides. The same roads we drove over the day before were now under large amounts of water and cars falling into rushing rivers below as roads gave out.  We were so thankful we weren’t on the road — I can’t even imagine what would have happened if we were winding down the mountain through Lyons and into Boulder and we had been just a few hours late.

Our time at the Stanley was nice and we had great accommodations to enjoy the gloomy weather (though now it’s sad!). There is a resident psychic/life adviser of the hotel, Madame Vera, who I visited the last time we were there — so many people had such great things to say about her and that she was able to say things that were freakishly accurate (I know of at least 4 people personally!) that I decided last time to check it out for myself. Aside from some interesting things, she had told me hubby was not going to be unemployed when I voiced my concern for his looming job loss at the time. Turns out, hubby never had a period of unemployment between Frontier Airlines and his new(ish) job at Gavina (which getting this job is a miracle in itself if I told you the backstory)… Anyway, it’s pointless to try and explain it — you just have to see her!

This time, I wanted to ask her what she saw in terms of my weight loss.  Did she see success in my future? I take what she says with a grain of salt, but I wondered why I just couldn’t freakin’ DO IT. Why I couldn’t just stop eating crap, track and go to the gym. I say I want to lose weight, but I don’t try lose weight — so does that mean I don’t want to lose weight?

I told her how much I spent going out to eat and about Weight Watchers, but my weight just was not enough to give me that push I needed to get back on the wagon. She told me to look at it in a different way — a spending diet. Money is important to me and I am going through it too fast, which in turn prevents me from doing other things I like to do. I thought about what she said. I care more about money than I do about my health at this point — so going on a spending diet is a great solution because it helps in various areas of my life. Stress, savings and even losing weight are all tied into money for me!

Aside from a few interesting things she saw for my future, I came away with a good sense of direction. I knew putting the focus on weight loss was not enough, but I just could not find the thing that would propel me. After coming home last Friday, we have not gone out to eat. The temptation is just not there! I have been making good food at the house and stocking up on things that will help me be successful without going out to eat.

I know that eating at home forever is not possible, but when I do go out, I am sticking to lean protein and veggies. Going out to eat is a huge thing for me — I’ve been probably doing it at least 4-5 times a week for the last decade! Going this long without fast food is empowering and I love seeing my bank account stay the same.

My next challenge is to start tracking again. I didn’t want to do too many things at once. I felt like eating at home was a good goal to have and now that I did a week of it, tracking is the next step. Then a regular gym routine…baby steps!

Some delicious things I’ve made at home this week are:

Green Chili Burgers — Used leanest beef and no bun

Chicken Picatta — Craved this after seeing it on Trisha Yearwood’s cooking show

Frozen Reese’s Peanut Butter Pie — I need to have something yummy in the house — so Dashing Dish to the rescue! So yummy.

Addicted to Dining Out

$645.16

What does that number mean? That’s the amount of money we spent between August 1st and August 31st going out to eat. In some cases, the hubby was reimbursed for a few meals when he was working out of town, but at most that would be approximately $100 — so there is still $545 still being spent on dining out at a variety of restaurants and fast food establishments. That food number does not account for groceries, which I spent about $150 on over the entire month.

So, it could be safe to say that we send upward of $800 on food and another $70 (now every three months) trying to lose weight from eating $800 worth of food.

What a mess, right?

Yep.

I can see this vicious circle swirling around me and it feels impossible to get out. It makes me question if I even want to lose weight. I mean, I certainly don’t want to be over 200 pounds, so why do I continue to go out to eat? Dining out has been a constant struggle in my weight loss journey. I don’t know where I stand between the addiction to eating out fast/low quality food and being lazy — I know both are the root of my issue.

It’s easier to go out to eat than it is for me to make food at home — but I know that’s just the laziness talking. When you do something that makes you unhealthy, sluggish and broke, why do you continue to do it? I Googled ‘addiction to fast food’ last night, and it seems I am not alone:

You get the point.

Then I found this article: 7 Ways to Stop Eating Out From Killing Your Budget. Perfect. I mean really, can you imagine how much stuff we could do with an extra $500-600 a month? That’s another $7,200 put into the savings account each year in ADDITION to getting to my goal weight.

The article had some interesting points, some of which I need to consider and just do — no more using laziness as an excuse. Ideas were:

  • Learn to Cook Well. I think I’m pretty good in the cooking department; however, when my taste buds are craving an enchirito from Taco Bell, I don’t think I have the means to cook it at home. I suppose I need to retrain my buds to like foods that are not so artificial and fake. On a side note, I am a very picky eater in that I have a hard time preparing meat and eating it. I am also disgusted at fat, skin, bones and anything else in meat…which is hilarious, given that most of the crap I eat at a fast food restaurant is all of those things ground up and shaped into a meal. Stupid.
  • Take a Lesson From Smoking. I’ve never quit anything cold turkey. I probably can say I have never had the willpower to stick with something and stop doing it. Hubby quit smoking cold turkey and he can quit eating out, but I have never tested my strength when it comes to fast food — I really need to turn this around.
  • Set a desirable goal. Hubby and I want to go to Hawaii on our 10 year anniversary this February. That could be in jeopardy for two reasons — not having the money (not eating out could save $3,000 by then!) and not wanting to have fun because I look and feel terrible.
  • Weight Watchers. Yes, this was actually part of the suggestions! Of course I love the flexibility on WW, I just see the outrageous number of points I spend on a daily and weekly basis eating food that is high in points and low in nutrition. I mentioned going over most of my weeklies and this is completely due to dining out.

All of the points in the article were good — I hate spending the money and adding it all up truly shows how out of control it’s gotten. Time to just exert the effort and stop — or the cycle will never stop! This is something I am going to be more accountable with in my blog posts.

 

 

 

Weigh-In: 9/2

Another loss this week. Still have a way to go, but at least the numbers are going in the opposite direction now! This week, I kept up with tracking. No gym trips (something I am still trying to work on), but tracking has been my main focus because I spent so many weeks not even doing that.

Through tracking, I noticed I exceed my points on a daily basis and then on my last day or two of the week I end up in the negative weeklies. I know this is due to dining out too much, so that is my next area of focus — and a blog post!