Making the Move

We left our beloved Weight Watchers meeting in Colorado back in October and ever since then we have struggled finding a leader or meeting that we truly like and look forward to each week. Throughout my last few posts, I have talked about not having motivation or excitement anymore on Weight Watchers — I know that a good part of my gains have been slipping back into old habits with dining out. But a lot has to do with not looking forward to going to my meetings and after talking with hubby last night, I finally admitted it.

I don’t want to quit Weight Watchers — I love the program, I know it works and I don’t want to quit because I am struggling. That’s when I need my program the most. The issue for me was I no longer had that excitement to go to the meetings and I wanted so badly to pick up where I left off after moving from Colorado. With my two previous leaders, I looked forward to my meeting all week. I learned about myself, about Weight Watchers and I came away from each meeting confident and motivated to make it through another week so I could show off my results on the scale.

Now, I don’t even look forward to going to meetings. Since hubby and I share a car for the time being, we are limited to Monday and Wednesday meetings, but with his changing work schedule we have tried Monday thru Friday at some point since being here in Long Beach. None of the leaders clicked for me and the members honestly annoy me for the most part. Either they are 60+ years old and use the meeting as their social time and talk throughout the entire meeting or you have the know-it-all who seems to have all the answers, but can’t seem to implement them in their own life. Leaders don’t keep topics on track, there are multiple conversations going on throughout the room and the leaders don’t try to simmer them down — overall, I spend most of my time looking at the clock to see when it’s time to leave.

These factors cause me to skip one or two meetings in a row, go in just to weigh and leave or just not care and see gain after gain on the scale. Last night, I needed advice from the hubby and we had a great talk. First, comparing my motivation from Colorado to what I have now, it’s no wonder why I feel bad each week. In Colorado, I was doing great and the losses each week boosted my motivation for the following week. Now, I dread going to meetings to face the gain, which only drags me into the cycle of not tracking or finding the excitement in the program. Combine that with the issue I am having with meetings and I was seriously contemplating quitting Weight Watchers.

Instead, hubby suggested we do online. We have access to our eTools, we know how the program works, we have our favorite Weight Watchers leader on Facebook, so she can be a virtual leader for us. I have many inspiring and amazing people in my Twitter family, so I have support around me at all times. I have always been a little worried about my success going it alone on the online route — but right now, I actually think it’s the best thing for me. That feeling of dread is gone when I think about Weight Watchers, I am actually feeling better and more positive about my journey and I have been really searching for that renewed sense of purpose when it comes to my weight loss.

Water, water, water

Water is definitely one of those things I get into the mood with, or I can go days without getting any at all. Last summer, I was getting in a gallon a day — but once I stop, it seems ten times harder to get back into that amount. Lately, I have been drinking too much diet soda. I am not ready to give it up yet, so reading things telling me how bad it is for me just doesn’t matter. I love my Diet Dr. Pepper and Coke Zero and honestly, I am probably not going to be going soda free anytime soon.

What I do need to stop is drinking 2-3 cans of diet soda a day and getting more water in because I do know it cleanses and has obvious health benefits. I am an all-or-nothing kinda girl — it’s something I really need to work on. I attempt to go from no water at all to 100 ounces a day, fail at meeting that goal, and then give up. It’s that way with everything I do and it’s the reason I’ve packed on 90 pounds to my frame.

I came across this great entry today on Facebook, by It Sux to Be Fat, ┬ácalled ‘Make Small Changes.’ This week’s Weight Watchers weekly was about the small changes adding up and as I sat in the meeting I was thinking about the things I have done better.

  • I switched to a lot more FF options in my cooking
  • I’ve started to add more fruits and vegetables to my meals
  • I make better choices than I did when dining out (most of the time)
  • I’ve watched portion sizes and tracked (most of the time)

There are more that I can’t think of off the top of my head, but these little changes are the reason why I lost 31 pounds (then gained back 10 since). When I stopped doing some of the small changes, I gained the 10 pounds back. So really for me, it’s not about cutting out every food group and drinking a gallon of water a day — it’s making small changes that I can stick to as I build on newer habits.

I want to start drinking more water and the entry on It Sux to Be Fat gave me a great starting point — start small. She started out with 4 ounces a day, moved on to 8 and then eventually got to 100 ounces. Sometimes I need those lightbulb moments to get me focused and not so worried about breaking records for myself.

Measurements

I’ve been on a roller coaster when it comes to the number on the scale, and while I pay attention to the number I see at my Weight Watchers meeting, I am trying not to place so much importance on it. I’ve been fitting into smaller clothes and shopping at “regular” stores, so I suppose the number on the scale isn’t the complete authority on my size or how I feel. It affects me mentally however, when I work out at the gym, eat well and then still see a gain — regardless of how it got there or how quick it will drop.

I decided for July I would take my measurements. Well, because of a busy schedule and holiday, I haven’t gotten around to it — but Sarah from Losing Weight and Having Fun, reminded me that I hadn’t posted them yet. Thanks, Sarah!

Here they are:

Bust (with bra) 47 in.
Waist 51 1/2 in.
Hips 46 1/2 in.
Thighs 28 in.
Calf 17 in.
Arm 16 1/4 in.

I have an apple body shape, so I am really hoping to see my middle go down a few inches by the end of the month.

In other news, I decided to go back to the traditional tracking on Weight Watchers. I loved Simply Filling, but the thing I missed this week was the cut and paste factor of WW — I tried to eat as many power foods as possible ( I had a .6 loss this week at my meeting), but I was having trouble knowing when to stop or measure proper portions. Hubby and I talked and we want to go back to tracking until choosing power foods become more common, then slowly integrate the Simply Filling into our daily life. We need the discipline and tracking points helps both of us with that!