Feeling Better

It’s amazing how in control you feel when you track what you’re eating. It’s also amazing how something as simple as writing it down can seem so impossible when you’re in a funk or you just don’t want to put in the effort. For me, the last few months have been a little bit of both. I’ve mentioned in previous posts that our living situation was really uprooted there for a few months — me having to go from making food for the hubby and tracking everything to making stuff just for myself.

It’s a sad fact, but I don’t put the effort into anything if it’s just me. I got off track with writing down what I ate and pretty soon I was tracking once or twice a week. My weight crept up about five pounds and the 2.5 months since moving has been a fight between gaining and losing the same 3 pounds. Well, I don’t know how it happened, but I got pissed off.

Pissed off that I was STILL in the same boat I’ve been in for the 2, almost 3, years on Weight Watchers. Sure, I’m 25 pounds less. But really?! In 34 months I lost a whopping 25 pounds. What a waste of time and money. The rut/cloud/funk I’d been in finally drifted away about a week ago. Then I found numerous challenges to join — which I mentioned in the post Hello, 2013! and I finally started to do the fundamental things Weight Watchers teaches members. I tracked every single day — I had a major disaster with a plate of brownies over the course of 4 days, which brought my weeklies to an embarrassing -53 PPV. But you know what? They were tracked and accounted for — that’s more than I’ve done in weeks.

Finally, I’ve been feeling better. More in control. I’ve gone to the gym three times this week and earned a few points with my Active Link. It hasn’t been much, but I’m just trying to get into the mindset where I need to go and workout. I’ve been trying to get in at least 64 ounces of water — some days it’s more. The great news is I’m down 1.4 pounds this week, even though I was -53 weeklies. This week should be much better, as I won’t be making any desserts to be tempted with for the time being.

I’m turning 30 in a few weeks, and I’m determined to get this fat suit off by the summer. I literally spent my entire 20s unhappy, overweight and depressed about how I looked — I’ll never get that time back. I’m certainly not going to let another decade slip out of my fingers.


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